Perspective

Withdrawals

i layed in his bed after he left, crying and listening to these words :

"hello, my old heart 

how have you been ? 

are you still there inside my chest ? 

i've been so worried 

you've been so still 

barely beating at all"

i need him here to keep

my cheeks warm

and my lips moving 

to brush my skin with his fingertips, 

to make my eyes crinkle with laughter. 

now he's out on the canyon road alone,

come back .

Notes from the Iron & Wine Concert

the following consists of quotations by sam bean (a.k.a iron & wine) at his concert on november 6, 2013. 

"this next song is about a man who was living with his heart on the outside of his rib cage"

"i'm going to play you a constellation"

"i can't promise that this next song will make you happy, but isn't it funny how sad songs can sometimes make us feel better ?"

"this song is about death. but don't worry. it isn't morbid." 

"this song contains explicit morbidity. maybe I should have put a waiver at the front."

"i'm in the business of making a fool of myself"

"well this next song ... is a song ... thank goodness"

"last time i was here at the great salt lake .. people were freaking crowd surfing. so if you're feeling the need to crowd surf, just jump on up there. no fighting. someone will catch you."

"i hope that wasn't too rough for you guys .. but saying the F word a bunch of times in my song seemed like a good idea at the time"

*someone requests a song* "you guys are just full of good ideas !!"

*someone randomly whoops* "is that you mom ?"

*someone shouts that sam is sexy* "oh dude you have no idea"

"you don't even know what i've lost in my beard ... meals .... songs ... fans ... *quietly* children ..."

*backup comes back on stage* "alright guys let's quit this funny business and get to work"

"this next song is because my parents put drugs in my baby bottle"

Deception

• small fish make me happy
• Being myself makes me happy
• cacti makes me happy
• angUs & julia stone make me happy
• my dog greeting me at the door makes me happy
• getTing good grades makes me happy
• healthy cookies make me happy
• speaking spanish makes me happy
• hiking makes me happy
• crackling fIres make me happy
• having the rings on my binders stay lined up all schoolyear makes me happy
• human anatomy makes me happy
• walking hAnd-in-hand makes me happy
• my body makes Me happy
• cabins make me happy
• my laugh makes me happy
• singiNg in the shower makes me happy
• canyon drives with lOud music makes me happy
• collarbones make me happy
• doing noThing makes me happy
• sadness makes me happy

Nothing & Nowhere

sketch of your faces i still don't know you
aren't permanent, permanent.
you want all of our moments stolen,
blind alleys and hallways to basements.
how are you gonna hide till you disappear ?
cos' nothing and nowhere is golden.

apartments are cages
i still don't know what is permanent, permanent.
maybe all my possessions were precious.
truth is, all my possessions i somehow lost 'em.
been traveling so light,
when we're floating by, it seems 

nothing and nowhere is golden.

some say we're lost in space,
some say we're fallin' off the page
some say our life is insane,
but it isn't insane on paper.

playgrounds are graveyards
& all of our scars are permanent, permanent.
there's no replacement for places.
i'll always love you, you're mine.
numb is the new high,
all memories die out 

'till nothing and nowhere is golden.

some say we always only wanna get off,
some say our hands are much too soft.
some say our life is insane but it isn't insane on paper.
some say our hair is in our eyes,
some say we're out of our little minds.
some say our life is insane,

but it isn't insane on paper